Welbutrin
I’m taking little purple pills. I keep
them in a sky blue glass box by the sink
Sometimes I push and push
(good mother, food mother)
but I can’t get out
of this house.
I am scraping these walls,
shaving them, smoothing them
blank as a page and ripe as stone
looking for a stinging cut,
a word, the force behind some hand
that strikes finalities.
I am not a good housekeeper.
flour moths
fly out of the cupboards.
I throw away the oyster crackers:
larvae are squirming in each hexagon
hollowed out by tiny mouths
to hold their young.
I’ve thrown away a lot of food
but I‘ve never gotten rid of them.
I scrunch scrunch
inside the box.
The wall is sky cold
my thinking crinkles
as this blue slides in and
makes a static white of it.
I don’t miss a thing.
I’m taking little purple pills. I keep
them in a sky blue glass box by the sink
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